A Lifetime Ago & Just Yesterday

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I look back on our journey, almost two years later, with a strange sense of feeling like it was an eternity ago…..and just yesterday…..

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The days seemed to last forever, it was emotional, difficult, surreal…..

Words cannot express the sadness of not getting to meet my babies in their first moments of life….

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Or not being able to hold them…..


The strangeness of asking a nurse if I was allowed to touch them…..


The overwhelming joy to see their faces for the first time…without the masks…..and “sunglasses”….

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To feel the weight of their tiny bodies…..

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For the opportunity to change their diapers….

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In the midst of it, it was so intense, so raw, so scary……that all I could think….was that I would never forget…..

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But as time goes on, I have forgotten….

I don’t think about it everyday….

The memories of the NICU….have been slowly tucked away…..

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To make room for…..first smiles, laughs, words/signs, books, walks, playdates, cuddles, dancing, bubbles, baths, birthdays, and kisses…..

One day at a time…..


One thought on “A Lifetime Ago & Just Yesterday

    The Beginning « Breathe... said:
    April 20, 2014 at 5:52 pm

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